I am not feel good. Headache, sore throat, fever ... I still have flu and getting worst tonight. Raining outside, wondering in his hug when sick like this. It must be warm and confirt in his. My dream, please hug me still.

As if y dream here besides me, he will know what I am feeling rite now. with seing my eyes I am sure he will know. Last night I dreamed of him, he hug me. I looked so small in his hold and deep hug. I am not always power puff aslike most poeple know about me. Good night, I am going to sleep at least trying to sleep. Wishing my dream there to come in dreaming.

Dear My Love,

Khansa, you are sick again. Flu, runny nose and cough. So that your voice as like as frog again :). Get well soon my dear. I love you.

Get Well Soon

My dear Khansa, already a week you have flu. Your sounding as like as a frog why you were sleeping because of the runny nose. Get well soon dear, stop making Bunda worry. Grow up fast then your body is stronger from any condition. After that, lets we travel around. Bunda will wait with all the strength and time i have. 

Big hug and kiss

Suicide Is Coward

Khansa, listen to your mother tonight.

You are sleeping as like as a baby new born, sometimes Bunda has to listen your breath carefully to make sure you are still breathing. 

Your mother through many hard in life. Many of many and many of times think and try to suicide. But your face always and always appear as my alarm to remain me you need me most until end. 

Khansa, how hard my life is, Bunda needs you as my alarm to sign me that "BUNDA SUICIDE IS COWARD  " if i do that, i will let my Khansa neglected in whole life. Bunda wont let that happen. 

I want have something as being my own. If one person, some people or  world ignore, hurt, break, down me as like as a dumb Bunda will always has place to heal myself, Writing is homage, writing is sanctuary. It will give Bunda a chance to rest before face the mean world. 

You Take My Patiance

This morning, you eat as like a cat. So little. Take out all the patience. Once you open your mouth you just keep whole the food inside. Just let them stay there as like birds in their nest. Bunda cried, but you suddenly cried also. Oh my dear Khansa, why eat time for you becoming so world war for me. It will take 2 hours. Listen what Bunda said, 2 hours Khansa. In 2 hours Bunda can do many things. In 2 hours we just can seat on table food, talk here and there. Play here and there, draw here and there, and many things which out of my mind.                                      2 HOURS KHANSA ??????!!!!!!######******

Khansa First Fight

Oh Khansa, what have you done ? you are really as like a boy.

You fight with your friend, Raisya just because she not let you touch her toys. Oh Khansa, you made her cried as like a cat.

Bunda carried you and asked you to shake hand with her. No more fight Khansa. You just smiled at me then hug me so tight. Oh Khansa you are really something.

Whatever you do, Will always love you.